I say…..look at my face. What do you see? Disappointment!! Disappointment often turns to frustration, frustration turns to resentment, resentment turns to anger, anger to rage, rage to indifference and once i am indifferent, i will have forgotten that you was ever my number one.
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I say…..look at my face. What do you see? Disappointment!! Disappointment often turns to frustration, frustration turns to resentment, resentment turns to anger, anger to rage, rage to indifference and once i am indifferent, i will have forgotten that you was ever my number one.
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The way i see it
there are two types of people.
The ones
who take the safe and practical route
and the risk takers
the ones
who curve their own path.
We have a tendancy
to ask for a map through life
but we have that within us
and the feelings are the guide posts
that tell us when to go left
and when to go right
or to stay in that very direction.
Oftentimes
we tend not to listen because
its hard and scary.
And we forget that
there is no other path to happiness except
the one
that we create for ourselves…..
DEFIANCE FROM THE NÖRM
Sometimes a harder sacrifice must be made for a future wort havin….. That which don’t kill me makes me stronger. I can’t say that’s something I believe always. I think the things that try to kill me, make me angry and sad and that my strength mostly comes from the good things, like the ones I hold dearest at heart, my son, my family, my closest friends and the satisfation of my hard work. Those are the things that keep me whole. Those are the things to hold on to when yo broken, when I want to stop on the weary road……
Positive Vibes amidst all the Chaos.
Sometimes a harder sacrifice must be made for a future wort havin….. That which don’t kill me makes me stronger. I can’t say that’s something I believe always. I think the things that try to kill me, make me angry and sad and that my strength mostly comes from the good things, like the ones I hold dearest at heart, my son, my family, my closest friends and the satisfation of my hard work. Those are the things that keep me whole. Those are the things to hold on to when yo broken, when I want to stop on the weary road……
Positive Vibes amidst all the Chaos.
Life, they say is a series of moments. Big and small & joyous and tragic. It is these moments that give our life shape and meaning. That call us to examine the path we have taken and what tha future holds……
SELAH
I can’t quite explain it, but as i lazily sit here on this saturday afternoon at the Artcaffé, a feelin of uncertainity overwhelms me. there are so many different sounds that i hear.
To my right is the quiet and somewhat calmness but every other few minutes the click of heels, another of lazy feet and also chit chat from a passin couple :D.
To my left and front is the clang of dishes from the cafe kitchen, the beepbop from the cars drivin by, the jazz n funny enough mambo music comin from one of the taxi parked right next. The trolleyz from the supermarkets being pushed by customers…….:/
All this colliding into a vacuum of space and suddenly there were gunshots……am jus remembering how everyone was goin about their business as i am and then all hell broke loose. Feelin rather agitated right now, jus wanna leave as soon as i can……. 😦 :> ODD FEELIN OF DEJAVU.
DeJaVü
“A moral compass can only point you in right direction but can’t make you go there. Our nowadays culture preaches you shouldn be afraid of anythin you do anymore……..!! So what do we expect?!” 😮 😦
As it has BECOME…..!!!
No matter how hard i tried, I wouldn’ know where to begin. To begin hatin you in its realest sense. I live you, I breathe you….. Take away that, and what’s left other than the obvious……Being LIFELESS :*
WITHOUT….
…”I want to make love to you one more time”, He randomly said to me.
“Why are you doin this to me?” I replied, heartbeat racing & full of surprise….
We spark a conversation and out of the blue I asked back,……
“Did you mean it, when you said you wanted to make love to me one more time?”
He answered me with a quick “Yes I did”. “Make love with me then….make it last” I shocked myself!!!
Flowing with it, he questioned me, “Are you up for it? When? And do you remember our 31Hrs?”
“As if it were moments ago, makes my heart skip a beat!!!” I remenisced with him.
And there, we began to set a date of an untimely time of passion together.
No time, no day set, but the moment shall avail itself, no specifics,
Days came and the anxiety build up like a volcano about to rapture….
“I cant wait”, I said to him, as the days fell into place…..
A time of harsh parting, became a replay of a meeting ever so intense and I wondered……..
I wondered if this was the biggest mistake of my life, buuuutttttt…..
A force beyond me kept on pushing towards the pull…..
Friends he had said we were……and yet we planned to cross boundaries friends shouldn’t.
And there, a moment so divine arose, a time of passion together.
“Wake me up, am I dreaming?” He replied with a simple, “You wide awake & aint dreaming love!”
Came then, the confessions and my replies were raw and uncut…..
“I just cant wait to get my arms around you, be prepared”, He said to me……
My heart skipping beats I said, “Can i ever be prepared enough for you?”
Thoughts ran around, and memories unfolded öf times past……
He said, “Promise me, no holding back coz am doing all that I’ve wanted with you”……
This side, streak in him, so rare….Him in control, I cant hold back the words, “I want you badly” and…….
It all boils down to this moment, a time of an unforgettable passion together.
“I don get why I cant rid you off my life”, he says,”Together, till I drop dead, coz am not tellin u those words…
….those wordz that will make you leave”. My heart in knots, feeling like the only woman, to ever be loved by him……
Words so sensual come alive and every part of me is excited to meet with him…..again,
Like a first date…..”These are our first days”, he said to me…..Memories never end…
A treasure full of them, repeatedly playing around in my mind cellar……
What am I longing for….tickles in my thoughts, for my Baibey to love me more deeply…..
What are my expactaions??……”Dont set ’em too high”, he warns, and again my heart swells……
This moment, tasting like Seville chocolate, melting in my mouth, a time of slow passion together.
It is now….I see you!!! Jus like the First day. “Hey”, we both say….
Nervousness settles in with a mixed reaction of want….In the flesh he is,
His right hand bringing me close to him….warm embrace,
The scent am so used to hits my nose….a cocktail of harsh musk and Old Jamaica….
Come……lets reason together. I watch him from the corner of my eye…..
I want him and wonder how or where to begin…
From the start I guess……Waterfalls close to a drown….
It is now, it is here, this moment so sublime, a time of passion together.
Behind closed doors, he is me, I am him, we are but alone,
No miles away to count, no holding back, free flow. He kisses me and i melt away like a lit candle…..
Warmth surrounds us and with words held back, we build up a silent conversation…..
We are two, NO we are but finally one….Mahogany Brown and Dark Chocolate Skin.
Silohuettes in motion, no telling up from down…..Of Bingis’ & Empress’, of Tigers & Lions,
Butterflies……Time for freedom…time to fly…..Two Clouds above 7 He wrote of, once to me…..
Heaven, thas the direction.” I wanna go with you”, I say. “Hold on then…hold on”, he says, in a sexy husky voice
Moments away inaudibly he said “Am here”….& I with him……An erruption arose….Or should i say Fire….works???
And It so happened, that the 43Hours of passion together was nothng short of Magical !!!!
I Surrendererd to and into Him…..Passion.
I Am The Blaqchild 